"him" i apologise about the guestbook thing. i thought Gary had posted it and it made me really mad. *sigh* anger clouded my judgement yesterday.

things are moving a lil by lil everyday. and sometimes it drives me crazy when Gary calls and he says something that either makes me annoyed, angry or frustrated. right now i'm just not sane and reasoning may just be beyond me. it may have been three weeks since the break up, but i've been put into this whirlwind of emotions non-stop. i've at least only made my last post a mere mention with no action. i can't let loneliness eat me. and i won't.

if it's not just about dealing with the after-math of the break-up... i'm beginning to become paranoid about the Japan project. you know when people say "no news, is good news"? well... no news causes me paranoia.

anyway, on to better things. i met up with Wing Meng over the weekend. i love catching up with my ol friends. even part of the conversation we had about the family feud between Melesa's family and mine came up because i had asked Wing Meng before if Ham had mention any reason why she had stopped talking to me. made me realise the qualities of a real friend.