ever feel like when you've got something you've been pining for a long time now... like you suddenly think that maybe you didn't deserve it or you're unsure it's what you've really wanted/needed?
i'm in that state right now. a singleton. and unsure of it. mmm...

maybe i'm just feeling different. a little more free - or too free, that time creeps up on you when you've suddenly had too much time. i won't brood over this. i can't afford to let my guard down or my self-esteem. i shall look forward to each new waking day (afternoon) and smile, thinking that what i do is for myself and my family.

and better still, concentrate on enjoying and building my career. what else could be so wonderful? i am after all, picking myself up and mixing around with a whole lot of friends again. that sense of camaderie never left me. i love to be surounded by people. people who are different and always keeps me on my toes. yes, i get bored easily. and there's nothing i like best than surprises and the unpredictable.

years ago, that wouldn't have been me. i would've always dreamed of knowing, of being able to control my present and future. now, i've learnt to live by the day. it is pretty exciting. =) exhillarating and adrenalin pumping.

"A thing of beauty is a joy for ever:
Its loveliness increases; it will never
Pass into nothingness; but still will keep
A bower quiet for us, and a sleep
Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing." ~Endymion, John Keats