i want to be gone
to be swallowed into earth's core,
so i will love and hurt no more.
why can't i be left alone
with this miserable heart
that leads me astray?
leave me alone! let me be...
or else i will hurt
and be hurt until eternity.
for my heart's become
a curse so sure,
of its loneliness
it makes my face azure.

let me cry myself to sleep
and in this tears i do weep
i shall be hidden in recluse
and to the world,
i shall be of no use.

i am tired of life's love suffering. time waits, time heals... time makes you suffer it's tumultuous meals. i feel like hiding under my sheets, and let the world pass me by and be forgotten.
i wish Gary would give me some time. he's driving me to insanity with so many pressures and questions worse than before! *sigh* i shall only endure the punishment because i asked for it. my actions have done him wrong, hence i shall face the consequences.
as for my heart, i wish to be done with it. for even as it cries ill, it causes my mind and body pain in doing what it thinks is right.

i don't want to make any more decisions right now. i thought i've had enough for the past two weeks. i've had second thoughts and become stressed to the core. i shall just hide from the world as though i'm no more...