i want a non-committal relationship. *sigh*
i'm so emotionally drained from all this relationship-thingymajig that it spoils everything - mood, life, self-esteem, and good things that come. how can one live normally when one pulls you down? i really cannot take this. i long for singlehood. singletons, hurrah... *sigh*frus*sigh*

after dinner with my family and Gary, i spent the later half day/nite of my birthday with Julia and Elaine at Nouvo for what was supposed to be a girl's night out. i had fun. clean fun. but deep inside feeling bad for bailing on Fairul and Gary. can't i choose how i want to spend my brithday? i want to run my life my way. i already have my parents to nag and harass me, i don't need another person doing that to me. life is for living, not sitting down and moping.

i'm glad to smile and think of the day that didn't end in an argument or a quiet cry in my bedroom.