been keeping myself occupied as much as i can lately. yesterday, had lunch with Lorraine, Tsui Ping and Chiu Hsia... then later in the evening played Scrabble at Insomnia with Sharon. Aqmal and his friend, Val dropped over. it's been pretty nice having people around. especially people who wouldn't quite fuss over me just becos of a break up.

mmm... Aqmal's sweet. he made me this CD with happy songs and it really worked. =) i especially love the song "Smile" by Nat King Cole. some of the other songs from the swing era also were effective... my cheeks really hurt after that... lol!

man, what can one do without friend's around?? *sigh*

yesterday, Fairul rang me up just before he boarded his plane back to New Zealand. he told me that while packing that morning, he found the ring that Gary and I had bought him from Kota Bharu last year. he started crying. sentimental bloke. i love him for all he's done for us, and me. he's one dear, dear friend i'll always hold close to my heart. this made me realist that the relationship wasn't just about Gary and me, it was also about the people all around us. this relationship this time seems to have a huge impact on everyone. Gary told me last nite that when he told him mum about the break up, she shed a tear... already missing me. i felt awkward. yet... sad. it's not easy... i don't know if it was fair that he told me that. but it's not going to be easy if he keeps calling me everyday either. *sigh* i just wish he would give me my space... this is the reason why i asked for the split after all.... *sigh*

anyhoo... i really can't wait to start production work. i'm really looking forward to it a whole lot. it would get me back into the swing of things. meantime, i had been drilling myself to start my research... hahah... yes-yes, no more procrastinating!