i'm just so tired. tired of all the fussing and annoying arrogrance of some people... why lah? just because i'm a passive aggressive, it's even harder to vent out frustrations. i always end up with a little tear down my cheek... =/ *sigh*
what drives me is that i know what i'm doing... and though it may be right or wrong, i can be humble enough to accept it.

"the future is not for us to see" - how very true. and yet sometimes, i wish that i can control it. i'm such a control freak that i want to have in my hands all that i can know about myself in the future. but over the last 3 years, i've learnt to live 6 months at a time. maybe even less now. it's exciting once you get the hang of it. but terribly frustrating when your inner clock screams for stability. that rarely happens now. all i want to know is whether i'm doing the right things in the present to secure my future...

thoughts aside, i've been trying my hand at non-linear editing the last two days. i've been quite fearful of this part of post production ever since one of my assignments in college turned sour. =/ but that seemed a long time ago now. i can't say i don't like post-production, cos its the learning process bit of my 'grasshopper' training. heh... Ken calls me his 'grasshopper' ever since i started calling him 'si fu'... *grin* anyway, it's alright. i won't say i'm good at NLE... and i do enjoy production... but who's to fuss n choose when knowing both actually gives me a boost - in the resume... heheh... =)