*sigh* i need to learn patience. one thing i lack tremendously. my edginess, short temper and restlessness does not bode well at this moment being in between jobs. i've been too emotional and i need so badly to snap out of it. i just feel like there's no way, that things have become almost impossible. so many should haves and could haves.

got an email about a scriptwriting job i tried to pitch for. didn't get it. oh well, guess that's part and parcel of life as a writer...

everyone i talk to has been telling me to try out something else. maybe a career change... i just don't know. it's not that i'm thoroughly unhappy working in this line. i love it! i just went through a bad patch very recently working at a place with certain kinds of people, that's all. is that a reason to change careers? *shrug* i don't even know what else i can do. and getting pressured by dad into getting a full time job isn't helping either. =( so much pressure, so much expectations i've never had before.

learning. struggling to survive.