i think some people are just born to this life to annoy the hell out of other people. and i don't know why i end up being the annoyed one. i'm grumpy, moody and was in a terribly unusual cussin' mood a while ago. the worse thing is that the height of all annoyance comes from a 15 year old juve. bleh.

yes, PMS-ing and hating it.

been reading Mal's blog, err... live journal, the last few days. after much 'persuasion' into getting the url from him. @-@ i was kinda upset and somewhat disinterested when he eventually gave in from his apprehension. i only read it two days after i had the url. that was friday. reading it rekindled my feelings for him again. i guess you could say, things did get better. strangely, i went into depression again when we got back together. not because it was bad, it's just being in an LDR without knowing when we'll see each other next -- of course, next July's definite =( -- is very painful. i can't go to NZ for $ reasons. being committed to my car, n having no work makes things rather diffucult. then there's my mum going back to Manila in December. *sigh* i'm 23 with burdens as big as the world. well, that's how it feels like anyways. *shrug*

just being stupid right now and wishing there was a definite answer to everything. like, getting married to someone who'd take care of everything for me. hahahahah... *delirious* it's the hormones talking. who am i kidding? i won't get married.