i am feeling depressed... agitated... annoyed... upset.... frustrated... sad... and irritable all at once...
i always hate this swirl of sudden uncontrollable emotions. i can't seem to ever point out the reason why the attack of emotions is just driving me to seclusion. maybe it's hormonal - i did just have my period cycle end. *sigh* the bane of being a woman...

i actually grew up hating being a girl - for so many reasons that seemed unfair to me. my mom used to drill it in my head that i must do chores "because you're a girl" ... "you can't go out late at night... because you're a girl" ... how's that for shallow? somehow i've the idea ingrained in my head that it's worse off being a girl than a guy. you just have to be ever so extra cautious with what you do, what you wear, who you're with... it infuritates me that we are the "weaker sex" because of that. it's completely tiresome to be fighting off a whole lot of stereotypes just because you don't want to live them. and when you don't - it gets more upsetting. am i in my own world here? or am i creating such illusions in my head?