it's beginning to sink in...
mal's leaving for NZ is sinking in and its leaving me with lumps in my throat... would it be easier if i just ignored it and let the days pass? dealing with this impending long distance relationship thing all over again shouldn't be something new for me, but i just think it's unfair... and that's just the irrational me. the rational me says, "well, you got yourself into this in the first place!" brrr... yea... yell over and over how much i want to be a singleton, and a little over a month after 'liberation' i find myself in another relationship. well, i did think it was just going to be a rebound thing... but like Sharon would be telling me "Zon, listen to yourself!" heh... yea, i don't think i am the sort of person who could survive with a one off thing... bleh...
this absolutely sucks... *sigh* just something i wanted to speak my mind about outside BB.