doesn't it make him wonder, why he doesn't hear my voice anymore? doesn't he want to? everything he seems to do these days, just makes me feel more and more distant. i feel like he doesn't care any more. he talks about things like he's so far away. he is, physically. but its further away from thought now. he talks to me like he tip toes around quicksand. i stare at my phone and wish i could pick it up to call him. but my pride tells me otherwise. because i feel like its become one sided. i don't know when i would see him next. i don't know what he's thinking. i have to pry it out - but even then he barely says anything. i think i've lost him. to my own emotions.

he thinks just saying that he loves me, would hurt me more.
he thinks that telling me he wants to see me, would scar me inside.
he thinks that telling me the truth, would draw me away from him.
he thinks. but he doesn't realise.
i'm already being drawn further away, the more he hides.
he doesn't want us to deal with the hurt together. it's not about us anymore.
it's about you and me.

*sigh*